By. KALU JOSEPH
I know you’re not aware that we’re dating yet, but you will with a little patience and timing. I can’t lie and say I don’t need you to myself, but I’m wondering if this is another Right girl’, ‘right place’ but the ‘wrong time‘ syndrome.
I dream about you holding, teasing and planting soft kisses on my forehead, and the whole time I wasn’t even asleep, babe. I know you feel me, hear me but can’t touch me and that’s because you don’t even know if I want you or not.
Truth is, I think about you constantly and wonder the things I could do to you if you we’re laying next to me, but believe me—as much as I want to put my dick in your soul, I equally want to invest in your goals.
I love talking to you, even though we barely talk and all I ever said is “I believe in you” when I could have just said I need you to myself.
You went from being a Malafacka to Nefertiti. Truly, you’re my Nubian queen and you don’t even need to flash me some tittles as warranty. Going through my gallery and coming across photos of you helps slow down my thoughts, just maybe you’re my Codeine in a trashed mind.
I want to hold your hands more than I want to pin you down, undress you and study each poetic line I find on your body. I want to hug you more than I want to fuck you, but that only comes second to this strong urge I have in my spine to say I love you.
Just what if you were my girlfriend and we could go places, live out our fantasies, partake in our holistic growth and development? Just what if you were all I could think about on a lonely night where my dreams come alive but you’re not in my arms?
What would it feel like to wake up to my text that evokes a feeling of satisfaction in you like an early morning sex? What will it feel like to watch you go from Mondack to Man–Dave, my guy, my girl and my dearest friend?
What if you’re all I need in a world where there is a lot of things I can get? What if you give me the type of love I can’t live without in a world where we don’t live for life?
Will you be my girlfriend now, or I should wait a little longer to enable you feel less “too available” if that’s how this feels? I am sorry I don’t talk about myself a lot and I don’t tell you certain things you should know about me, but that’s only me trying to protect you from me.
Listen, if I grabbed your ponytail and you ached your back a little, it will enable me bury myself in you. I mean that way you really get to feel my warmth in your bones.
I want you for now, for life and for all times. You don’t need to worry about how long, I already know that time is of the essence. I’m not about to smash and call a cab, I want to smash at all times when words don’t suffice and our bodies is all we have.
I need you, I need us. I need a partner, I need a friend and I hope I could someday take the place of red and gold bandanas on your head. I don’t know if you need someone to talk to, someone to share your genitalia with, build with, grow with and have little ones that look like us with. You’re like an horse race, but I ain’t afraid to say “Manchester“, just maybe she will help you stay United.
Again, you’re not my girlfriend yet and it may be harder to relate with everything I said, but let me know if I can slide in your DM right now and tell you this all over again. I adore you, or whatever the word is I can’t say right now.